Tuesday 21 February 2012

What is this feeling called?

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Images – As seen by eyes at that moment
Text in Red – Heart Beat
Text in Blue – As listened by Ears
Text in white – As mind speaks and orders me, a one side converse
< Text in half arrows > – Comments just for understanding
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- I will start to home now. I might not have chance to go at 3 AM when the actual work starts in complete night shifts. Knowledge Transition is the only stage of support life cycle that is always safe and advantageous. Press Start –> Shutdown in your computer.
- tdin…tde n ..tda n..tda n < typical WinXP Logoff sound >
- Why did not you shutdown and just logged off? It is a power wastage. Anyways, take the jerk-in. It should be quiet and chill outside the building with cold breeze.Also the body that I am controlling is very sensitive to cold…………..Ok, towards the lift bay.
- lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub < HB less than 72 per min >
- <10 seconds later> Stop walking…Just wait a minute …this building is noise less at this time…feel the pin drop silence. Look at the whole building, standing at the edge of the floor fence in 3rd floor. Lights at very few desks on different floors making the hallow structure inside the glass skin of the building, just visible.
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- Enough waiting here. Felt the silence a lot! Start towards the elevator. <5 seconds later> Good that the company takes care of power saving by just operating only one lift out of 6 in the nights. Press the down arrow. I know you always get confused while selecting the direction arrow.
- The red light is glowing around the button and is coming from 6th floor. Just look at how this ‘front load washing machine’ kind of building is constructed with the hole in the front end of central part of building. Its awesome to see that a couple of bridges connect the two halves of the building in 3rd and 6th floors. But its very scary to see this in the night with a decorative green bulb giving light towards 6th floor. Gives some kind of bizarre feeling.
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- lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub < HB = 72/min >
- Hey where is this lift. In Ground floooorrr!!!!!! … What happened? It did not stop at 3rd floor? The red notifying light around downward button has stopped glowing. That means I missed the lift watching the central hollow part of the building? Impossible!!! I could not have missed it in this silence. Am I so much involved in the green light that I did not take the elevator? However, press the button again. This time, wait watching the floor indicator of the lift.
- Dtannnnnn tdinnnnnn ttiiddinnnnnnnn <An iron rod fell on the ground from at least 2ft height, somewhere >
- Bang!! What is that sound? Just shout if anybody is there. I know that some construction work is going on in first floor but not at this time.
- Hello !! Is any body there? …….. ………….. <Heard my voice with an echo and then silence>
- lubdublubdublubdublubdublubdublubdublubdublubdub <HB = 80/min>
- No reply. Why all scary things are happening today? Have to do something to forget this. Enter the lift now, the doors are open. Press 0 for ground floor and do not press 3, idiot. I am getting weird thoughts now and it will make your body sweat. I am feeling as if some shadow is getting reflected in the closed doors of the lift.Image066- Who is at my back? Turn back…no one…..lift is going down silently and you are seeing yourself in the mirror. Hope no hands come out of the mirror…..Oops…I am falling into some kind of a fear trap. Just get out of it by concentrating on some thing else. Take a photograph of yourself, and the invisible me in you, in the mirror. Look at your right leg, twisted at an angle. What happened?
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- lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub <HB = 75/min>
- Play a song on our mobile and swipe out for attendance. Look how the security guard sitting in the reception desk is watching you, as if you are a thief. Dont care!! Walk out of the building and wear the jerk-in. Hey where is the jerk in. I reminded you but you did not take it. Punk!!! Its up to your body to face the coldness outside. Open the building exit door and you will feel the chill.
- heww….phewww…hwwww…Everynight in my dreams …. hewww…phewww…hoooo….I see you…I feel you….. <Cold breeze and song from my mobile. Very coincidental>
- Is that song necessary at this hour? I am just recovering from an unknown fear and you made me remember it again. It might be a romantic song but its not getting suited now. Either stop it or play another song. Ok…good that you stopped it. The outside surroundings of the building are very silent also. Strange and there is no one around and you are alone. Freaky night.
- Whoo…Whoo……….Whoo..Whoo < An Owl is making sound somewhere >
-lubdublubdublubdublubdublubdub <HB = 85/min>
- Ohh God..Save me…I am getting frightened and look how your (my) body is sweating in the cool atmosphere. Look at the road. I am feeling as if no life is existing except you and that owl. I am also feeling that something is following me (you). Please walk faster dear. You can wipe out your sweat later. This road, perpendicular to the branches of ‘E’ shaped Employee Care Center building, is now looking ghostly to me.
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- hewww….pheeeowwww…ghewwww…RRr….Aaa….V…..III…….ghewww… < heard my name in that breeze >
- I heard some one calling your name, Ravi, in the breeze. Some thing ghostly is really following you. Look around….. No one is there. But who called you. Is this just your scary feeling? Something is happening around you? Run … dont just walk briskly like that. Run Run Run…Look at your shadow. There are 4. Ok it is because there are 4 sources of light. Other shadows belong to trees along the side of the road. Nothing else. Do not get tensed.
-ludululuduludulududuluduluduluduluduluduluduludu <HB = Dont know, probability of reaching infinity = 1>
- I feel like some one is patting me at my back and some hand is following you to rest on your shoulder. Look back!!! … No one !!! Do not stop like that. Look back while you are running. You are almost reaching the security at the office exit.
- <silence>
-Uff I can see the security now. Cool down. Nothing is there. Cool down. What a SPOOKY feeling. Swipe out at the turnstile and just get out of the office. I can see lot of people waiting for cabs and there is some one or the other moving on the road outside. You can now walk safely to home with out that feeling of fear.
- lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub <HB = 80/min>
- lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub < HB = 75/min, few minutes later >
- <few minutes later> By the way, what is this feeling of fear called in psychology? Para normality?…..
- <few minutes later> Hey did you love any girl and then sadistically killed her in the past with out my notice? I feared that she became ghost and is following you……………………..No problem, you can tell me wiping out your sweat……….Do not fear!!! I would not tell any one. After all, you are controlling me ….
AND THE CONVERSATION GOES ON……………


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